Another appointment w/ Doctor Rogers
What's happening Abba?
Asked Dr. Rogers permission to record the session. She said she no longer gives me permission. Told her I would write down her response to my questions and she said that was alright.
I asked Dr. Rogers why I could not leave the unit.
She said 'things were starting to unravel'.
I pointed out that my nurse told me that I was doing quite well, and was doing a good job not interacting with patients.
She said the amount of emails she was getting was a reason she suspected I wasn't doing well, when she had previously asked me to email her to keep her in the loop.
I told her I wouldn't email her anymore and that subscribing to my newsletter and getting automatic emails do not count.
She said I wasn't sleeping.
I told her I went to bed very early last night.
She said I was having conflict with patients.
I reminded her that my nurse told me she was putting in my chart I was doing well, and was doing a good job not interacting with patients.
I asked her for permission to get an orderly to take me off the unit out front for a cigarette. She said no, it was against hospital policy.
I asked her for permission to go to the schizophrenia south courtyard accompanied with two orderlies twice a shift.
She said no, they don't have the resources.
I asked her for permission to go to the schizophrenia north courtyard (which is walled in) on my own. (Unit + Courtyard privileges)
She said no.
I asked why?
She cited hospital policy.
I used to do this before, during the same admission. I think she is lying.
I asked for a pass to go to Service Ontario again.
She said (this time) that she will 'work on that'. (Previously she said she wouldn't because she didn't want me to replace my stolen driver's license).
I ended the appointment.
I am trying my best to ignore the fellow patients and 'be about my business'. Since then sometimes they stare at me menacingly, enter my room without permission, raise their fists at me, and sneak up really close behind me.
By God's grace I am still praying for them.
I am still non violent and not suicidal and I would appreciate an increase in privilege levels since Dr. Rogers reasons don't seem to make sense.