Another update from an Appt. w/ Dr. Rogers and a Talk with the Manager of Client and Family Relations (Let's call him... Bob JV Arctor - A Pseudonym)

I talked to Doctor Rogers today.
Previously she said I was not allowed to leave the unit because:
I was sending her emails.
Patients were complaining about me.
I was not sleeping.

So I told her:
I didn't send her one email.
I was doing my best not to interact with patients.
I slept 6.5 hours one night, then 5 hours the next.

So I asked her, could I go off the unit now?
She said NO!
She said:
You are Unraveling.
You are Delusional.
You are Disruptive.

I asked her, how long will I be restricted to the unit?
She said it could be a long time.
I asked if I could get an orderly to take me to Service Ontario.
She said maybe. She will contact the government and tell them she feels I am unfit to drive.
Then I said, if the government agrees I should not drive, then I can apply for an Ontario Photo ID, but not until then, because as long as you have your drivers license you can't apply for an Ontario Photo ID.

I told her I can't trust her.

I told a nurse later I do not wish to speak to Doctor Rogers until she gives me more privileges. There is no sense talking to her since I cannot trust her.

I spoke with Bob JV Arctor (Pseudonym), the Manager of Client and Patient Relations.

He said the staff will go over the hospital policies they feel are relevant, then give me physical copies and go over them.

I told him I had contacted the Human Rights Legal Support Centre and that they would follow up with me soon.

He told me if I wanted to demonstrate to Doctor Rogers that I am well, don't ask her to reassess. (I won't be speaking with her til she agrees to increase my levels).

I asked him how he felt about Doctor Rogers walking me to suicide.
He said there were nuances to it.
He said she knows I will commit suicide only because I told her I would if she injects me.
He said she still feels it is best for me, even given that I will attempt suicide over and over again if I am ever injected once more.
He acknowledged that she tried to get my Substitute Decision Maker the Public Guardian and Trustee (since I am on a Form 33) to consent to inject me before the appeal process ran its course (which the PG&T refused to do).

I told him I am doing everything I can to fight the pharmakiea as a man, as a Christian, and as a pascifist. But that I see suicide as a lesser sin than being on pharmakeia.

He told me the hospital staff have been made aware that if there is an incident, they have been instructed to give me every single opportunity to calm down. That it is in my care plan. From asking me to go to my room for a while, to restraining me before resorting to 'chemical restraints' (pharmakeia).

I told him at The Civic they injected me without any justifiable reason, even though I went and peacefully laid in my bed, did not resist restraints, and was verbally warning them that I wrote an advance directive and what they were doing was wrong and illegal.

I told him it is possible they do the same thing here at the Royal.
He said it shouldn't happen, but he couldn't legally 100% garuntee that it wouldn't. That staff have emotions and sometimes things just happen.

He told me I could have a cigarette maybe in the patient courtyard on Monday if Doctor Rogers agreed, but when I asked my nurse, she said hospital policy says no smoking in the courtyard. What was that about?

A quote from the hymn: It Is Well With My Soul

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.

Praise the LORD!

I will try to spend the weekend listening to my hymns, working on my tasks peacefully, walking the halls quietly, or just hanging out alone in my room, so no one can easily accuse me of doing wrong.

My Abba knows best ALWAYS! Christ Jesus knows best ALWAYS! The Holy, Holy, Holy, Holy Spirit knows best ALWAYS!