Anticipatory Anxiety
I'll update my post on Williams Syndrome.
Oh Boy! Do I ever need to go through my issues and tidy them up and make hyperlinks between them.
I deal with anticipatory anxiety.
So sometimes I do things that seems weird or strange, and people question my motives.
Well let me tell you, because of the horrors I have been through with no-touch torture, satanic ritual abuse, gang-stalking, etc. I can sometimes imagine some pretty dark possibilities. (Anything is possible, BUT scripture can't be broken is the limit).
Sometimes I 'brace for impact' by putting myself there mentally.
Other times I do something ahead of time, to prove to myself I could endure it if it happens.
Better than fixating on it, and continuing to ruminate.
Better yet, is trusting in my Abba, and trying my best by God's grace to take things day by day.
Knowing that all things work for the good of those who love God.
That he knows what's best for me and everyone else, because he is all knowing, all powerful, everywhere, eternal and perfect.
That through experience I know:
There might be a tempest all around me, but I safe in my Father's hand.