Big Update (Three Letters via Email)
Hi Dr. Rogers (and cc'ing (name)),
Hi all, (name) got me my tax return information for 2019. The refund amount is a lot less than I thought it would be (only $224), so I need to put most of that money directly into my savings account when it is direct deposited.
$35.75 for my drivers license replacement. (or $35 if Dr. Rogers is successful in getting my license pulled and I need to get an Ontario Photo ID. I had a clean drivers abstract before admission, and was looking into a garbage truck driving course, I spoke about this with Dr. Baines while I was still an out patient. She was supporting me in this.)
$35 to renew my birth certificate online (It is $25-$35, but I am being conservative)
$25 to register with JusticeNet.ca for my form 33 appeal process I can begin with a Form A to the CCB on July 22nd.
(I spoke with a lawyer from the Pro Bono Law Society of Ontario on the phone yesterday. They seemed really friendly and were helpful. They told me I could always call back for more legal advise.)
(I need the Form A printed by (name), but I emailed her about that yesterday, and she is a very busy person here. She takes care of patients on both Schizophrenia North and South).
$120 for an adult 5 year passport. (Perhaps Dr. Baines and Dr. Labelle will be my guarantors - CCing him. I don't have photos, so that will need to come out of my $149 a month some month. Or perhaps another tax benefit.)
That comes to $215.75. Just under what I get back from my 2019 tax return, the year I became a born again Christian. I can get a slice of pepperoni pizza perhaps from the cafeteria with the remainder. (Pizza is one of my favourite foods, right behind spaghetti).
(name), for patients that are on $149 a month, what do they do for OC Transpo? I can't easily afford even the community bus pass with other things that may come up. Can I get a pass from The Royal?
With the $149 a month I can purchase 3x cartons of menthol cigarettes from My Legacy right beside the Rideau Centre, and use the remainder to cover whatever expense presents itself that month. (A lot of patients here at The Royal smoke the cigarettes from places like that. I won't be selling any of mine, and if Ottawa Police Services ever pull me over and confiscate my carton, I guess I would have to find the money somehow to pay the appropriate fine. If you respect authority you need not fear it.)
Thankfully, once I get my drivers license or Ontario photo ID, I will be able to verify my identity with Stripe, so I can accept donations online from my website reynen.ca. I may even need to start a gofundme (once I can verify my identity with them) because JusticeNet may not be able to offer me a lawyer with a waived fee, only a reduced one.
Worst case scenario, I can panhandle at the ByWard market and sing hymns. I looked up bylaws and on the official website of the byward market, and as long as you follow the rules you can do this.
The lawyer from the Pro Bono Law Society of Ontario told me it would be illegal for them to inject me or force me to take pharmakeia pending the appeal process. So even if it takes me a while to find a lawyer due to gatekeeping or just natural hurdles, people will need to be patient with me while I try and get one. I require a lawyer to represent me while I am on a Form 33. There is even an official notice (from the hospital staff) on the door to my room, stating that in the event of a code white (which should never happen, I am non violent and not suicidal) that staff need to physically restrain me before they inject me with pharmakeia. They also need to go over this care plan every day - (The Client & Family Relations Team Manager) made sure of it. So they won't just inject me despite all the warnings like they did at The Civic. They know I wrote an advance directive, and they know that even though I am not suicidal, I would rather die than take the pharmakeia because of my strong culturally acceptable religious beliefs. (Please see Got Questions article on pharmakeia if you have not yet.)
(name), could you please print this and put it in my chart? I may cc Dr. Baines every now and then. She indicated that she felt my emails made me look erratic, and I want her to feel at ease that despite the injections I received after I wrote the advance directives, and despite all the withdrawals from coming off the Clozapine suddenly at a low dose, which can take years to subside if I am not mistaken, and the stressful situation I find myself in, I am feeling and doing quite well.
Dr. Baines: Jesus loves you (even if you throw up a 666 hand sign every now and then)! I hope you got my e-mail yesterday that I am dropping my CPSO complaint. Have a lovely day!
Dr. Rogers: I am working on a well thought out letter to hand to you in person upon your arrival. I will make many drafts and revisions and ensure it adequately summarizes my position, beliefs, and progress in a clear fashion. Then when you get back you can read it with me and we can go over it together. I am glad the PG&T (my SDM) prevented you from injecting me against my will. I hope by the time you read this, you have had a wonderful month long vacation. And once again: I love you Dr. Rogers. I love you enough to keep reminding you that Jesus loves you (even if you throw up a 666 hand sign every now and then, and say your current body is your glorified body! )
My lawyer, Mark Handelman was questioning Dr. Baines during my Form D hearing (where my parents refused to be witnesses, despite Dr. Rogers wanting to 'summon' them) and said:
"Okay. And doctor, I realize that there is as much art as science to the practice of psychiatry as opposed to say, orthopedic surgery where you get an x-ray and you can tell what the problem is. You need to extrapolate from whatever information, whatever evidence, whatever you observe, is that fair?"
I believe I have D.I.D. from MK-ULTRA style Satanic Ritual Abuse. A diagnosis that isn't treated by psychotropics, and is contained within the same DSM where the criteria for schizoaffective disorder is. It is often misdiagnosed as schizophrenia. This isn't a delusion in my humble opinion, but I am not a doctor. I have faint memories of being brutally sexually assault and made to murder someone whose name was James and a voice shouting "If you tell anyone we will murder your whole f**king family".
This is consistent with Complex PTSD. I wish the staff at The Royal would let me consult with an outside expert in DID. It is strange they don't have any expert on DID at a mental health facility as big as this.
Dr. Baines, you should know that Dr. Rogers disagrees with your longstanding diagnosis of ADHD and Generalized Anxiety disorder, for which you treated me for years with stimulants and benzodiazepines, but is adamant that your diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder is correct, and that she would dismiss the opinion of any professional that had a contrary opinion out of hand. (This sounds delusional, by the definition contained within the DSM.)
I would prefer that the staff at The Royal took this matter more seriously. Someone could have been killed when I was three, possibly more than one person, and I was brutally raped anally and orally.
Regards,
Steven Reynen
a little one of Christ Jesus (one of many)
reynen.ca
Jesus loves you!
(and so do I!)
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To Ottawa Police Services (info@ottawapolice.ca) ,
Note: Got an automatic response indicating they received the email.
Hi,
I was brutally raped at three, and I think I was made to murder at least one other person, his name was James.
Just letting you know officially. It was on my website reynen.ca.
Regards,
Steven Reynen
a little one of Christ Jesus (one of many)
reynen.ca
Jesus loves you!
(and so do I!)
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Rhona and Gordon,
Just a heads up, the police may choose to disregard this.
Please do not try to contact me through any means ever again.
Staff at The Royal know not to allow you on the unit. (name) the nurse should never have tried to pass on a message from you, Rhona.
I love you both, and I pray I will see you in the new heaven and earth with what would then be our glorified bodies. (I know that I will be glorified, to God be ALL the glory.) Please repent less ye perish.
Luke 21:16-19
You will be betrayed even by parents, brothers and sisters, relatives and friends, and they will put some of you to death. 17 Everyone will hate you because of me. 18 But not a hair of your head will perish. 19 Stand firm, and you will win life.
Luke 18:29-30
“Truly I tell you,” Jesus said to them, “no one who has left home or wife or brothers or sisters or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God 30 will fail to receive many times as much in this age, and in the age to come eternal life.”
Jesus loves you, and I love you both enough to remind you of that, one last time.
Goodbye Mom. Goodbye Dad.
My Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit are taking care of me now, and have been since 2019. (They kept me alive and were merciful and loving to me long before that, too. I just didn't appreciate it then).
P.S. Dr. Rogers, Dr. Baines, please do not encourage me ever again to connect with my parents. You would be doing me a great disservice.
If they continue to harass me, I will push for a restraining order.
If I see them passing on the street (or visiting Arnold at The Royal Ottawa Place), all I might do is wave at them, but I would definitely keep my distance.
Regards,
Steven Reynen
a little one of Christ Jesus (one of many)
reynen.ca
Jesus loves you!
(and so do I!)
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