Last time they drugged me here, I slept with an in-patient, and my outpatient doctor supported it

Last time they drugged me here on a Form 33, I ended up sleeping with a fellow in-patient not once, but twice at her apartment within walking distance.

Both times I told her I couldn't do it anymore and I felt very guilty.

My inpatient and outpatient doctor at the time Dr. Baines knew about it. But I was on pharmakeia. She thought it was great that I was feeling happy, even though I would cry to her all the time to let me off the Clozapine, that I didn't like what it was doing to me.

Now does that count as rape? The woman in question I think was an MK ULTRA slave (even though I was free in Christ) and she was on pharmakeia too. She was a patient of the same doctor!

What about her? Was she (the fellow in-patient) complicit? Or was she a victim too? Even though the sex was 100% consensual (and very brief - I hadn't had intercourse in a long time), were we like two drunken people at a party?

I haven't slept with another woman since then.

I never want to have sex again before marriage. And she would need to be a Christian, not someone just claiming to be a Christian.

Hard to think on the pharmakeia.

This is one reason why I will kill myself, no matter what, if the Canadian Government allows me to be forced onto the poison, one more time. Even though the poison itself will inevitably kill me slowly over time.

They tried to walk another patient into the courtyard with me on my courtyard time. Were they trying to pimp her to me?

I want a Christian wife. A free woman with her own desires, wants and needs. That loves Jesus more than anything.

Not a drugged and abused slave.

Are they going to try to do the same thing they did to me last time?

I'd rather die.

What's happening, Abba?