My first slap
Been slapped for the first time here at The Royal.
Been explicitly threatened with death.
I have been implicitly threatened with death and rape.
I have been molested and kissed.
I have been punched in the side and the face. (Thankfully I wasn't sucker punched.)
I have been punched in the face repeatedly.
I have been spit on.
An attempt was made on my life by lying about there being peanuts in a cookie made in staff led group.
But I was just slapped in front of the nursing station.
Before today, over the last few weeks, this woman has broken into my room repeatedly. She has called me Jesus. She has called me names and cussed at me. She has tried to show me her vagina. She has hit me lightly many times in front of staff. I believe she has cursed me. She even today came up and lightly struck me in the back of the head five times right in front of staff.
But just now she came up to me and slapped me across the face.
First time I have been slapped here at The Royal.
It's not entirely her fault. She is likely an MK ULTRA slave, and she is drugged on the pharmakeia. But then again, I suspect all of the patients here are MK ULTRA, since this is The Royal. And all of them are on pharmakeia.
I can't get away from the patients because I am restricted to the unit by Dr. Rogers. And she says I will be restricted to the unit until I get to the Superior Court of Justice.
Will it continue to happen?
I don't know.
But I am willing to live, suffer, and die for Jesus. Every. Single. Day.
I am free in Christ.
And nothing will change that. Not. One. Thing.
Romans 8:38-39
38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
If you are a brother or a sister in Christ reading this, please pray for that woman. She needs Jesus, and all they are offering her is pharmakeia, which just leads her deeper into sin.
May God have mercy on the people involved in the horrible and silent oppression caused by pharmakeia, from the pharmaceutical company executives down to the orderlies and guards, for they know not what they do.
I am no better than they. I used to promote the poison myself, among many other sins.
But I am now under that amazing grace, and I am dependant on God's mercy every. single. day.
Praise. The. LORD!
Update: It is the next morning. July 2nd.
She came and sat at the table next to me, looked at me while I was silent and said "Why the f**k are you laughing".
I approached my night nurse (name), told her that she was physically violent twice yesterday, and she assured me that she would speak with her.
The night nurse talked to her.
Hopefully this patient doesn't continue her pattern of aggression towards me.
Update: It is July 3rd. After supper.
The same patient walked up behind me and touched my butt cheek.
I instinctively batted it away with my left hand. Not aggressively.
Staff witnessed it happening.
I turned around, put my hands up.
I told her not to sneak up on me or tickle me.
They did not hold my reaction against me.
Note: The day prior I talked to my nurse about the four Fs (Fight, Flight, Freeze, and Fawn) and how the human body instinctively responds to different threats. He told me how anyone can have an immediate response to a threat (he was addressing my concern of a female patient or a female staff member entering my room while I was sleeping and initiating sex by touching my penis - another patient of this hospital had told me this had happened to him during one of his admissions). That if out of reflex I struck someone who was trying to rape me, it wouldn't be held against me. That I should just try flee immediately afterwards and call for help as soon as possible.
Staff said that if she comes near me to stay away from her.
I said I would try to stay away from her, but I wouldn't be walked into a corner (she and other patients position themselves, with the support of staff, to restrict me to a section of the unit I am not allowed to leave. This has been attempted on me here before a few times).
Update (July 5, 2025 - 19:43):
She ran up to me and got in my face.
I put both hands up in the universal sign for stop. I told her please don't strike me. I don't appreciate it.
Then she very gentle hit me on my side, and I told her again to stop without raising my voice.
Staff came up and asked her to walk away.
But, today I made her smile genuinely, and it was so beautiful.
It made my day.
Maybe because I am Williams Syndrome.
Maybe because smiles are universal, and he has one of the best I have ever seen when it is genuine.