On the topic of Suicide

Suicide is not a laughing matter.

If you are not saved, you end up in the lake of fire.

Even die-hard Satanists will end up in the lake, and even they know there is no hope in hell.

The Devil hates humanity, and wants to try to take as many people as possible with him.

I used to suffer with chronic suicidal ideation. I was an atheist. I used to think that if I killed myself I would just not exist. I would fantasize about not existing.

There are only two possible destinations for humans: eternal damnation or eternal blessedness.

Die in a state of rejecting Christ Jesus' free gift (which will not be forced upon you) at the peril of your eternal soul.

If I was successful in any of my previous suicide attempts I would have ended up in the lake of fire.

Praise. The. LORD! I am saved now, and he did not allow me to die before.

Please, do NOT kill yourself if you are thinking about it.

The situation I find myself in, and my decision making process is based on a few factors:

A) I am a Christian. I will be glorified.
B) I am subject to extreme abuse of many kinds.
C) I am being walked to suicide by the staff at The Royal, the Canadian Government, and my family.
D) I see suicide as sin, but I see it as a lesser sin than being on pharmakeia.
E) I am ready to die.
F) I am also ready to live and suffer for Jesus.

I long to have a wife, and kids, and be surrounded by my Christian family.

I have to take things day by day.

The only way I end up killing myself is if I am forced onto pharmakeia one. more. time.

No matter what happens. Abba knows best.