Regarding: Murder 'Beef'... Official? (slang)

Hi all,

For some time, those involved in persecuting me (various means, see my 'about me' page) while I am a psychiatric prisoner (involuntary patient) at The Royal Ottawa Mental Health Centre have known (although there was no 'official' evidence) that if they could provoke me to anger, I might get really angry and say or do something I would regret. Then, depending on what happened, a 'code white' might be called at the hospital. A code white involves staff members from all over the hospital swarming you and then injecting you with a 'chemical restraint' (an anti-psychotic, also known as pharmakeia, got questions?) and then sometimes physically tying you to your bed while you are in this drugged state. At the civic they 'code whited' me several times over nothing, I was not being violent and I wasn't suicidal. They abused their position of power and violated me, even after being made aware of my advance directive.

They also may know (or do know, although there is no public physical evidence) that if they can get one more needle in my arm (by any means) I would at some point attempt to end my life 'guaranteed' (it is better for me to kill myself at that point, since every second on pharmakeia it is easier for them to take advantage of me, and I see it as greater sin than even suicide). This is called 'walking a target to suicide'.

To me this is folly for one major reason:

God (My Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit) are all powerful, all knowing, and everywhere. They know whats happening at all times, everywhere, even if no one else does.

Even if they could get away with what they have done to me temporally, they will not get away with what they have done to me eternally. Each action we undergo has eternal consequences.

If people die in a state of rejecting Christ, they ultimately end up in the lake of fire.

I have accepted Christ, and if they are successful in trying to murder me in this way, they will have martyred me, and I will be rewarded by my Abba and Christ Jesus and the Holy Spirit for that too.

I pray the people complicit in this realize this is not a trivial matter, and seek Christ immediately. Jesus can even give them a brand new heart (if they have a heart of stone). Jesus can help them repent, and help them get over any wrong they have ever done. Help them overcome anything temporally.

If they end up accepting Christ, and they were complicit in this crime in any way, I hope they realize I forgive them, but that I want them to leave me alone. We will love each other perfectly once we get our glorified bodies, and depending on what happens, it is possible, however remote, we might even be there for the millennial reign of Christ on earth. It will be hard for me to trust anyone until then, due to the sheer extent of my abuse.

According to the American Heritage Dictionary:

Complicit: Associated with or participating in a questionable act or a crime; having complicity.

Doctor Rogers, my inpatient psychiatrist, acknowledges that she is trying to walk me to suicide verbally, and does not deny it. The staff at the hospital are aware of this, and have been informed verbally. The people gang-stalking me, torturing me with technology, or abusing me spiritually, psychologically, and emotionally are also walking me to suicide each time they persecute me given where I currently am imprisoned.

I am not violent, and non-suicidal. I want to be discharged as soon as possible, and once all my business with The Royal, The Civic, the Ottawa Police Services, and the various Canadian courts is finished, I want to be left almost completely alone for a while (perhaps just a wife, me, a dog and God).

God have mercy on them, for they know not what they do.