Rhona & Gordon Reynen, and Dr. Rogers (an e-mail)
If the judge signs off on the torture, I think my hunger and thirst for justice will beat my newfound drive to kill myself to put an end to the sin being forced upon me. (Even if it is me crying out with my fellow resting family for God to avenge our blood)
I won’t hunger strike or water strike again, it is futile. I am already learning to accept my new reality, and want to do so in as God honouring a way as possible.
All the staff from now on are officially:
Massa ____
And I will do exactly what they tell me to do, barring few exceptions, which will never change, even with their strongest ‘treatment’ (pharmakeia and ECT).
I will tolerate their physical, psychological, emotional and financial abuse. I have warned them that Jonathan Vant told me I am allowed to defend myself if it becomes sexual too.
Luke 18:29-30 won’t change.
If Rhona and Gordon don’t want to drive me from the hospital to the airport if Dr. Rogers ever feels like discharging me, that’s fine, I do not require their support or blessing. I’ll take a taxi with an orderly.
If Rhona and Gordon will keep their word and ensure I have plenty of Pepsi/coke (not diet) and export A smooth cigarettes, that’s wonderful. If not, it is what it is.I am prepared to be a literally tortured LIFER (similar to Arnold, but I am Christian) and I will have my mind and body slowly destroyed by their alleged ‘treatment’.
But remember, my treasure is laid up in heaven, and they only make me richer by harming me in this brutal fashion.
Christ Jesus is the LORD of LORDS and KING of KINGS.
My allegiance is to Christ Jesus.
They make take my life in a drawn out brutal fashion, but they will never take what matters.
I fear Canada will start doing this en masse to my brothers and sisters in Christ, calling them delusional for their standard Christian beliefs like Dr. Rogers has me, but I prayed about this too, and know my Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit will get them through it, and they will come out the other side richer for the experience.
When it is over, no one will harm me or my family ever again.
We will be united in love in Christ Jesus, and love one another perfectly, for ever and ever.
To God be all the glory.