Spoke with Lauren the Night Manager

As I walked the halls praying and singing hymns in spirit, I started giggling a bit to myself. I saw (name) the night nurse, looking cross and waving her arms at me and gesturing at me to take my headphones off.

(name), the night nurse, threatened to take away my laptop, pens and paper, courtyard time, and because she felt I was laughing too loud. She took tone with me that I felt was inappropriate to the context, and I asked her not to, politely.

I told her that I sometimes I think things or pray things that are funny, and as usual was trying to keep it down and not wake up any of my fellow patients. That I was not laughing too loud, and I demonstrated very quickly what I felt laughing loud would be. Remember, the patients here are on so much pharmakeia they could likely sleep through a fire alarm (but out of respect and love I make every effort to be quiet).

(She had previously stated that unless it was an emergency, to not speak with her.)

For months, because I have sleep dysregulation, be it due to Williams Syndrome, or anti-psychotic withdrawals (which are very serious), the no-touch torture, or the satanic ritual abuse, I am not sure, I have walked the halls trying to be quiet. I enjoy walking and exercise as it is good for ones mental and physical health (I am down over 160lb from the ~450lb I was at due to the weigh gain caused by the Clozapine, which is pharmakeia, that I was forced onto by Dr. Labelle and Dr. Baines, years ago during my last admission, which at the time I did not fight in the Courts). I have been singing hymns in spirit (poorly, but with enthusiasm), dancing (poorly, but with enthusiasm) and casting demons (I call it "yeeting" sometimes, like the 'cool youths') into the very depths of the Abyss (in Lord Christ Jesus name, with enthusiasm), I wonder if that is "salt in the wound". but there is no love lost for demons. (name) has always suggested that I sing my hymns and pray in spirit ('quietly') so I don't wake anyone up, and I felt I was complying, as usual.

Now that I am self-representing I need pens and paper. I need to be able to fill out forms. But I cannot always rely on my mail, nor access to pens and paper according to Dr. Rogers and the nurse (name), because pens and paper are "a privilege not a right" (see 'tweet' , or status I guess?) at x.com/StevenReynen: in the process of formerly following up with The Royal, The CRA, and Canada Post. Is interfering with mail a federal crime?

Now that I am self-representing, I also require my laptop (and not have it be stolen and never returned, especially since I am on a locked unit). This is in order to do research into how to best communicate with the Courts, and how to conduct myself as my own representative. Not to mention it allows me to study at Carleton in the Fall, and permit me to perform various other tasks and hobbies (I am a 'lifer' until I see otherwise, now) that are peaceful and lawful (in the 'privacy' of my own room even). The unit computer is often not working for days at a time, and people often are unable to access the websites they want. Some patients even have to ask staff for permission to make long distance phone calls, for crying out loud! On one occasion the internet access on my laptop has even been restricted by IT here at The Royal, and an IT staff member told me so in person, and I was not able to access my email specifically (and at that time the unit computer was 'malfunctioning').

I described the circumstances, briefly (not as detailed as this), to Lauren the night manager, and formally requested that she investigate this matter and check with her superiors: I do not want my "privileges" of pen and paper and my electronics to be removed from me over nothing, thereby hindering my ability to best self-represent (I have a right to a fair trial) and protect myself from the psychological abuse of gaslighting.

She said she would do so in a manner that was appropriate.

I still have my laptop and my pens and paper, currently.

They do things a bit differently here at The Royal.

P.S. please see this post detailing my rationale for my public documentation: reynen.ca/rationale-for-my-public-documentation/