Staff have restricted me to a hallway because apparently I am 'making faces'... but wait!
Staff are now instructing me I need to be restricted to a hallway of the unit because people are complaing I am making faces.
I walk the unit I am restricted to, and pray and sing hymns.
Sometimes I am angry, sometimes I am sad, sometimes I pray out loud, sometimes I pray in spirit. Sometimes I sing outloud, sometimes in sing in spirit.
If I make faces when I pray, it has nothing to do with the staff or the patients.
If they can't handle me existing, peacefully walking the hallway praying, how can I even exist on this unit.
I told them in not so many words they were being unreasonable, that I would not comply unless they spoke with the manager.
Then they said they had a written order from the manager.
Then I said, I think this is nonsense but I will stay in that hallway, even though this sets presidence again, and they can walk me into a corner.
They said its only for an hour.
I told them I am making a post about it, and I want to speak with a manager.
That I would stay in that hallway and just peacefully walk and sing hymns.
Whether or not I am williams syndrome, and I believe I am, I am allowed to pray and make facial expressions.
I said less than 10 words to patients today.
This is unfair.
Now one of the nurses just came to my room (as I was writing this post) and told me I am once again allowed to walk the whole hallway, just to keep quiet like I was doing. That they 'like me here'.
What in the world is happening Abba?
I can't leave the unit.
I made a post about this very thing a while ago.
Even slaves on plantation farms, exploited doing brutal manual labour were allowed to sing hymns!
I can't pray and make faces while I pray if I am upset?
Don't forget I am also a no-touch torture survivor and a satanic ritual abuse survivor which is still ongoing!
I am allowed to tell my heavenly father when I am upset and that I need help or love or mercy or grace for whatever reason!
I can't take my face off! And williams syndrome or not (and I believe I am), I am very expressive!
How do they tolerate the patients spitting on me, striking me, yelling death threats at me, mocking me, harassing me?
Do they have an easier time tolerating that, or when patients do that to them or others, than when I allegedly make faces (How do they know I am making faces at them? Do they know the intention of my heart?)
What is a Christian to do? I won't stop praying! I won't stop singing hymns!
I'd rather die!