Stellate Eye Pattern (and talking about pharmakeia and my incorrect diagnoses)
Here are my eyes, inter-webs! Not a great photo, but it must make do.
Very obvious in the mirror that I have a stellate eye pattern. This photo shows it to, just not a great quality (I blame the photographer, not the camera).
I am not good looking, and I am still morbidly obese due to the pharmakeia.I am down ~160lb from 450lb so far. I need to loose another ~100lb.
Last time I got off the pharmakeia completely, it took two years to lose the ~200lb I gained on them. I was a victim of poly-pharmacy, and I quit cold turkey because I realized how much danger I was in due to what was done to me by my handler and social worker from the Canadian Mental Health Association (CMHA) at the time.
The withdrawals were brutal. I was on two anti-psychotics, an anti depressant, a mood stabilizer, and a benzodiazepine (for a longstanding diagnosis of Generalized Anxiety Disorder). I was addicted to the benzodiazepine.
Prior to this was regularly using Attention-deficit Hyperactivity Disorder pharmakeia to 'treat' the ADHD diagnosis I had for years. It is strange to me that Dr. Rogers seems to disagree now with Dr. Baines, and the other psychiatrists I have had, that I have ADHD or GAD now that I can manage both disorders that are supposed 'chemical imbalances' or 'biological' without the pharmakeia. (I am not sure how exact of a science psychiatry really is).
She doesn't doubt the other psychiatrists are right about the diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder instead of dissociative identity disorder (DID) from severe childhood satanic ritual abuse (MK ULTRA) though. In fact, she won't even let me get an opinion from a psychologist from outside The Royal. And apparently there are no doctors capable of diagnosing DID within The Royal.
I even did three screening tools to show the doctors evidence supporting I was misdiagnosed with schizoaffective disorder while I was a patient on the mood and crisis unit this involuntary hospitalization. They discounted them. Research on the internet confirms that DID is often misdiagnosed as schizoaffective disorder.
Dr. Peabody, who was covering for Dr. Rogers one day, said any evidence I presented to him supporting a diagnosis of DID would be immediately discounted as a delusion. Then again, he was threatening me with the strongest anti-psychotic and ECT if I didn't consent to take the pharmakeia.
Something just doesn't compute.
Anyway. I may be very fat, and not good looking, but I love the eyes my Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit gave me.
Like the diagnosis of ADHD and GAD, its more evidence I have Williams Syndrome, and the result from CHEO was a rare false negative.
Oh, and pro tip! I have had strange men and women come up to me to try to kiss me me to cross boundaries with me and provoke me to anger. Please, don't do this!
If you want to see my eyes up close, please ask kindly and depending on how I am feeling I may give you permission to have a look see a bit closer than I am typically comfortable with.
Remember, I am a human being with feelings, wants, and needs, too! Even if I am a bit of a spectacle right now.
Have a lovely day!
Jesus loves you!
And so do I!