*WARNING: LUKE 17:1-3* I have decided on my suicide method, IF AND ONLY IF the parties involved succeed in walking me to it.
It would be better to be thrown into the sea with a millstone hung around your neck than to cause one of these little ones to fall into sin.
I am Steven Reynen.
Steven is a Christian (a little one of Christ Jesus)
Suicide is sin.
Pharmakeia is sin.
Lying is sin.
Every second living on pharmakeia is greater sin to me, than suicide.
I wrote an advance directive on July 7th, 2024 (see reynen.ca/my-advance-directive-2/) stating my wishes (and provided many legitimate reasons).
I will only commit suicide if Dr. Rogers, and the Canadian Government are successful in forcing me to take the pharmakeia just one more time.
If I want to succeed in killing myself, I need to plan to succeed on my first attempt, rather than have many unsuccessful attempts that get me further into sin, on more pharmakeia, and detained for longer in a psychiatric prison.
I will have to lie that I am not suicidal in order to leave the unit, after I am forced to take the pills (in pill form, since pills are less damaging to my body which is a temple of the Holy Spirit than the injections).
I will have to obey authority and take the pharmakeia, should the Superior Court of Justice, the Appeals Court, and the Supreme Court of Canada rule in favour of Dr. Rogers and uphold the decisions of the Consent and Capacity Board.
By attempting to force me on the pharmakeia, which would result in me committing suicide, Dr. Rogers, the Canadian Government, Rhona and Gordon Reynen, the staff at The Royal, the staff at The Civic, and anyone else that is complicit in this are causing me, Steven Reynen, a little one of Christ Jesus to fall into sin.
I told a guard at the D6 unit at The Civic that I considered pharmakeia to be sin shortly after being made involuntary, and I recited Luke 17:1-3 to him. He then lied and said I threatened him with violence. Then they called for a Code White. They restrained me while I laid there in my bed (not physically resisting), and injected me with pharmakeia, while a security guard literally yelled "Fuck Jesus" as I tried to plead and reason with them.
The Bible is the Word of God (and Scripture cannot be broken). Luke 17:1-3 states this:
Luke 17:1-3
One day Jesus said to his disciples, “There will always be temptations to sin, but what sorrow awaits the person who does the tempting! 2 It would be better to be thrown into the sea with a millstone hung around your neck than to cause one of these little ones to fall into sin. 3 So watch yourselves!
Read that piece of scripture over and over again, please.
What does Jesus say exactly.
That it would be better to be thrown into the sea with a millstone (a very heavy object) hung around your neck, than to cause one of these little ones to fall into sin.
Now, keep in mind: I will be glorified.
But perhaps my suicide could serve as a warning for those who have been involved, in any capacity, in walking me to it.
If they did not accept Christ Jesus before they died, they would be dying a terrible death, and then going to hell, and then they would be destined for the lake of fire, and all of this is a better fate than causing one of the little ones of Christ Jesus to fall into sin.
I am so tried of the people involved in this acting like there are not eternal consequences for their actions.
Satan has blinded their eyes to this, and I hate him for it.
I also believe all things work for the good of those who love God.
He could turn this suicide (should it come to that, and God willing it will not) into breaking through to one of the lost that have been involved, and then there would be much rejoicing in heaven!
Hallelujah!
With that in mind, I have decided on drowning myself in a body of water at time where it is highly unlikely I will be discovered by a child, if, and only if I am forced onto the pharmakeia.
Drowning isn't easy, I am told it is a very painful way to die.
I used to have nightmares of drowning. But that isn't the same thing.
I have been choked unconscious. But that isn't the same thing.
I have had a near death experience dying by suicide where I asphyxiated. But that isn't the same thing.
I have had trouble breathing for hours at a time, feeling the need to gasp for air. But that isn't the same thing.
I tried to put myself in that situation as best I could.
A heavy object tied around my neck by rope, pulling me under water.
Screaming and thrashing and gasping for air while I continue to inhale nothing but water.
Unable to swim to the surface.
I would likely be cold, (dressed), afraid (while simultaneously feeling peace, love, and joy), and alone (but not truly alone: my Abba, Christ Jesus, and The Holy Spirit would be there with me through the entire thing).
I am fully convinced this would be the right thing for me to do, if and only if, Dr. Rogers and the Canadian Government succeed in forcing me back on the pharmakeia.
I will never go back to living in a drugged chemical lobotomy fuelled stupor, going deeper and deeper into sin every waking moment on their pharmakeia.
I will never go back to living with (or being in contact with my parents or the rest of my extended family, even though I love them and still pray for them).
I will never go back to having sexual relations with a pagan or a heathen woman, especially on the pharmakeia (I want a Christian wife, that loves Jesus more than anything).
I would rather die. I would rather die a painful self-inflicted death.
And I would prefer that my death serve as a warning to those who have lured me into sin.
And as a warning to anyone who would lure any of my brothers or sisters in Christ into sin.
I hope ye repent less ye perish.
This is not a game.
I love you.
1 Corinthians 13:7
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
So, please hear this: more than once I tried to lure a Christian into sin (and yes, I was an 'incognito' MK ULTRA slave and an atheist).
And, yet here I stand. Forgiven. A beloved child of God.
I love you enough to remind you one more time, that not only do I forgive you if you were or are involved in this ongoing tragedy, but that Jesus Christ loves you, and your debt has already been paid in full, you need only accept his free gift of salvation.
Christ Jesus is the Lord of Lords, and the King of Kings.
My allegiance is to Christ Jesus.