You can check out any time you'd like, but you can never leave...
Were the Eagles right when they wrote Hotel California?
There are no coincidences.
Before even seeing this clip I was asking the staff here at The Royal whether one could leave 'Hotel California'... that I wanted to be discharged and never come back... That my tattoos have been blacked out... I wear my cross over my shirt (most of the time these days, since they stole my cross one day)... and I even purchased a hat that says "EX-MK"...
(Remember, when I was a slave I was an 'incognito' and 'chicken soup' slave).
But I am ready to live for Jesus... die for Jesus... and suffer for Jesus... every. single. day. By the grace of God.
I was sold in at the age of three by Rhona and Gordon Reynen. I was handed over by my babysitters at the time, who had unrestricted access to me, and my brothers David and Andrew (and I know this is emotional and not logical: but I failed to protect them) for years afterwards.
Dr. Rogers and Dr. Peabody maintain that anything I tell them about this, before they even hear about it, is a delusion indicative of Schizophrenia.
If the Canadian Government stops Dr. Rogers from walking me to suicide, I rather be falsely imprisoned as a psychiatric prisoner for the remainder of my days (since even the Consent and Capacity Board and lawyer officially suggested this, or dying at The Royal, is what will happen if I do not change my mind and voluntarily take the pharmakeia) then go back to taking the pharmakeia.
'They' (Dr. Rogers likes to ask "who is they?", but this has been addressed repeatedly: so read the posts on my website why don't you!) can destroy my mind with their no touch torture and satanic ritual abuse. They can destroy my body brutally. They can falsely imprison me on a psychiatric unit in a leading Canadian mental health centre in broad daylight. They can restrict me to unit and emotionally, physically, spiritually, and psychologically abuse me while they mock me and call me crazy. They can gang stalk me. They can attempt to reprogram me. They can lie and say I am violent or suicidal. They can slander me, and document detailed and coordinated lies in their 'charting'. They could stop me somehow from pursuing a law degree and passing the bar exam. They can isolate me from my true family, my brothers and sisters in Christ. They can steal all the few possessions that I have (including my two stuffed guinea pigs: Elizabeth and Martha). They can try and drag strangers into this situation and weaponize scripture using double binds and Luke 17:1-3. They could doctor the results of my Williams Syndrome genetic test (or it could have been a rare false negative). They could have a stranger come up to the fence of the Schizophrenia North courtyard (that is shared with the patients of Geriatric South and North) during my yard time and shoot me, or even kill me with a direct energy weapon. They can abuse people made in God's image around me that are programmable MK ULTRA slaves, while I am helpless to do anything. They can even dirty code white me, and leave me with no recourse but suicide. They can do all this, should my Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit allow it to happen (permissive will). And I will bear only as much pain myself as God allows.
They make my eternal reward better in doing so.
Matthew 5:11-12
11 “God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers. 12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.
I am weak. I am broken. I am helpless. I am powerless. (I also think guinea pigs are adorable).
(This is all despite my attempts thus far to notify CSIS and the Ottawa Police Services, whom I now follow on x.com, about various potential terrorist level threats possible here at The Royal, and the fact that I was brutally raped at the age of three and made to murder at least one child whose name I believe was James, which they still have yet to investigate).
But they cannot destroy my soul.
Matthew 10:28
Don’t be afraid of those who want to kill your body; they cannot touch your soul. Fear only God, who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
They cannot take the gift of love my Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit gave me. (Nor the gift of faith, Nor the gift of hope).
Love is The Greatest.
1 Corinthians 13
Love Is the Greatest
13 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
8 Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages[b] and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! 9 Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! 10 But when the time of perfection comes, these partial things will become useless.
11 When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12 Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.[c] All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.
To God be ALL the Glory!
Praise. The. LORD.
Christ Jesus is the Lord of Lords and King of Kings.
My allegiance is to Christ Jesus.
Clip from Fiona Barnett - Candy Girl Documentary (Part 1 of 2)
It meant so much to me to see Fiona's video, Candy Girl, which I started last night and have yet to finish.
Praise. The. LORD! for the courage of my big sister in Christ, Fiona Barnett.
She has a husband and at least one child it appears. What a blessing. I cried when I saw her strength, despite her adversity and systematic government sponsored persecution. I can relate with some of what she has been through, although I dare not compare our suffering.
It gives me such hope for a wife, and Mary, and Paul.
But she would have to be a fool for Christ like me! And, I need to focus now.
I am "out the program since 2019".
I have checked out of Hotel California (with my Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit).