Post #200: Dr. Rogers is officially back from vacation. She intends to restrict me to the unit (no matter what I do) until I get before the Superior Court of Justice (Is this ethical?)
Disclaimer: Dr. Rogers pointed out that I was incorrect in stating she was gone for a month long vacation. (It sure felt that long, but I was wrong. I am going back through my notes to get the exact dates right).
I went back through my website to confirm the facts.
This is one of the reasons why I document what happens here at The Royal Ottawa Mental Health Centre.
She restricted me to the unit a month ago, after I whistle blew to the Ottawa Police Services and CSIS. She wasn't on vacation the entire time. My apologies.
Note: At the start of the meeting with Dr. Rogers and the Schizophrenia Unit Manager, I asked her for permission to record it, but she said 'No.' I respected this decision.
She told me if there was a Code White that it would not be illegal to inject me with pharmakeia, despite the fact that I told her that a lawyer from the Pro Bono Law Society told me that it would be.
Staff have also confiscated my webcam, which I have kept in my room at all times, and I was told explicitly by the Schizophrenia North Unit Manager at this appointment to never record the staff. Dr. Rogers and the Unit Manager refuse to return my webcam.
They did not like that I wrote a message on the wall with marker. (I told them I would not do it again. That I would clean it and pay for any damage upon discharge. That I did it so if they ever injected me with pharmakeia again, I would know what I had to do, even if I could no longer think for myself because they had drugged me both against my will, and against my wishes).
I pray they do not call a Code White, I don't want to be walked to suicide, but I would rather die than exist on pharmakeia. This is why I wrote the advance directive in the first place.
I told them I would do every thing in my power, as a pacifist Christian to prevent them from forcing me to take the pharmakeia, and that I had yet to contact the press.
Dr. Rogers had no comment about what happened under Dr. Baines' watch last time I was forced onto the pharmakeia. where I ended up sleeping with a fellow patient, that identified as a pagan, twice with that doctors knowledge and encouragement. I couldn't believe that this type of conduct by her peer didn't seem to phase her in the slightest, it was certainly not ethical of Dr. Baines to do this to me.
Dr. Rogers also, knowing full well that I have cut ties with my parents and have told her repeatedly that I do not give her permission to speak with them, asked me once more to have a meeting with Rhona and Gordon. I told her that if my parents tried to contact me by phone, or showed up in person at the unit, one more time, I would officially contact Ottawa Police Services and request a restraining order.
Dr. Rogers told me I am only to send one e-mail a day to her. I feel this is reasonable and I will honour this request. I will write a draft and add to it throughout the day, should events arise that require documentation or reporting. The rest of my documentation I will just post on my website, as needed.
Dr. Rogers told me that she will not give me ground privileges, nor let me go into the Schizophrenia North courtyard without the presence of two orderlies, should they have the availability to accompany me.
Dr. Rogers said this was hospital policy, but this is not consistent with my experience. Soon after I was admitted to Schizophrenia North at the Royal I was able to go to the courtyard whenever I wanted, by myself, even though I was not permitted yet to go on grounds unsupervised. Hopefully the Client & Family Relations Team Manager can bring some clarity to this issue, especially given that Dr. Rogers wants to restrict me to the unit until I make it to court.
Dr. Rogers told me that I am still permitted to attend Carleton University online. (I imagine, if she is successful in restricting me to the unit until I go before the Superior Court of Justice, I will need staff to accompany me to my examinations that may require my physical presence).
She told me that I am not allowed to go to my appointment with TD bank this week. I will need to cancel this and reschedule at a later date.
She told me that I am not allowed to go to my appointment with the Paul Menton Centre at Carleton this week. I will have to see if they will allow me to meet on the phone.
She says I can go to an appointment with an outside psychologist to get a second opinion, but that a staff member need accompany me. This does not sit well with me.
She told me that I am not allowed to go to Service Ontario for at least two weeks. I still can't replace my IDs that were stolen from this locked unit, which means I cannot verify my identity with Stripe, nor with Equifax or Transunion. God willing this will be addressed in the near future.
She told me that I am not allowed to go back to Capital Optical for at least two weeks, which interferes with my ability to fill my ODSP supported prescription. It has been weeks since staff from Capital Optical called me and told me that I need appear in person to continue the process of getting my new glasses.
She told me that I am not allowed to go to my Dentist for at least two weeks.
From then on, every two weeks or so, I can request that a staff member escort me to appointments that she feels are necessary, provided there is staff availability.
She says I will in no ways be allowed to have a Service Dog while I am still a patient. I am scheduled to talk to the Client & Family Relations Team Manager about these policies on Wednesday (along with the hospital policies surrounding Code White procedures).
She says that I am restricted to the unit from now until I get before the Superior Court of Justice, no matter what I do.
How is this ethical?
I pointed out that I found out today that I am legally allowed to represent myself according to R.C. v. Dr. Klukach, 2018 ONSC 7415, even if I am both on a Form 33 and a Form 4.
At this point I intend to do so.
Here is the document I prepared for her, upon her return. She told me that she had read it, but did not comment on its contents.
I took a lot of time preparing this for her and I even went over some of it with the nursing staff. I wanted to put her mind at ease that I was not 'decompensating' and that I was doing my best to avoid the patients that had spit on me, threatened me, assaulted me, and harassed me. That I was taking care of my housing needs, financial needs, education needs, and identifying activities I could engage in if the Consent and Capacity Board is correct: that I will be here indefinitely or die here should I continue to refuse the pharmakeia.
I am now daring to be a Daniel. (See hymn below).
If it is my Abba, Christ Jesus, and the Holy Spirit's will, I want to become a Christian lawyer and stand up for my brothers and sisters in Christ that are also being treated like this in psychiatric prisons across Canada.
Furthermore, my nurse tonight told me that it is possible that they still inject me with pharmakeia. That 'anything is possible'. Perhaps this is why they confiscated my webcam: They do not want it to be recorded.
If I had a recording of what happened when I was "Code White'd" at The Civic, I imagine I would have been discharged a long time ago. I wasn't violent, I laid perfectly still. I told them it was illegal and that I did not consent. And each time snide remarks were made by the staff, and one time a guard even yelled "Fuck Jesus" as I was injected.
Here is a photo of the document I received from one of my nurses here at The Royal that is even up on the door of my room.
If they can physically restrain me, the problem has been solved already. There is no need to 'chemically' restrain me with the pharmakeia at this point. Not only would it be redundant, but I wrote this advance directive to which they are referring.
Why would they violate my wishes that I made while I was mentally capable, and while the appeal process of the Form D application by Dr. Rogers is still in its infancy. This seems illegal!
Until the Supreme Court of Canada has upheld the decision of the Consent and Capacity Board I want to, in a peaceful way, resist this to the full extent of my ability.
Pharmakeia is SIN!
See this post about the dangers of luring a little one of Christ Jesus into sin.
I am once again choosing to trust my Abba, Christ Jesus and the Holy Spirit with everything (by God's grace).
I still want to be discharged as soon as possible, and forgive and forget what has been done to me. This has not changed. But now I am truly set on one day becoming a lawyer.
Some good has to come out of all this mess.
I would love to one day help a brother or a sister in Christ that might be experiencing treatment like this. All at the hands of those who are calling them various synonyms for crazy,
1 Peter 5:9
But you must resist the devil and stay strong in your faith. You know that all over the world the Lord's followers are suffering just as you are.